Life has been so busy for me. With that being said, I haven’t taken the time like I normally do to talk to God and have him direct me in the right path. A lot of things have gone on in my life in the past couple of years good and bad, but I feel like the bad things have been so hurtful that it feels like I got stabbed each time. I’m a strong person, but I feel like there is something out there trying to break me. Maybe it’s my karma because I haven’t done everything perfect in my life, but what I will say is that I strive everyday to be the best person I can be, I don’t judge anyone, I pray for others and help in anyway that I can(even overextending myself). I write on my blog when there are days I don’t feel like writing because I don’t want to complain. I feel like people have depended on me sometimes to be their strength (including my readers) and that’s what keeps me going as far as this blog and I strive in life because of my family. I’m all they have so I can’t ever give up. I just need to get back in prayer and one with God for Him to direct all of my decisions. I need Him to be my strength even when I feel like I have no more.

Wearing: Gap top, J brand jeans, TJ Maxx vest, Gifted boots, LV bag.

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38 thoughts on “trying not to question…

  1. May God continue to bless you!!! You are truly a blessing to the people in your life (including your bloggers).. Thank you so much for your blog!!! You are so beautiful inside and out!!! ^_^

  2. Father God I ask for your total covering of Tanya for she is a true woman of God. Though we have all fallen short of your glory….I know she seeks to live in Your Will! Put a hedge around her,keep your everlasting anointing flowing through her. From the crown of her head to the soles of her feet bless her,protect her,strengthen her. Anoint this blog for this is not only a place of beauty and fashion, but a place of Faith,Courage and Wisdom a place of a womans walk to total kingdom living!

  3. This is so amazing, I can relate to this all too well, I read your blog all the time and I think your such a beautiful person inside and out, and I know exactly where your coming from because I too have fallen short of my one on one time with God because I got caught up in my day to day craziness, I know how it feels to be the start, middle and the end for your family and be strong enough to carry the weight, because I am all they have and giving up is never an option, but at time you do lose focus. Thank you so much for telling your story and being encouraging to everyone, you are a true blessing and I trust that God will always be a blessing in your favor.

    Thank you

  4. I've never been a fan of the faux fur vest, HOWEVER … after seeing how you rocked it in the post, my mind has been changed. You look great! Keep your head up!

  5. I love this outfit. I am not a fur person real or fake, but I am really loving these fur vest!!

    Every child of God has been, is or will be where you right now!! God knows we fall short, but we know that He loves us even with our short comings and down falls. That's what makes Him such an AMAZING Father!! He loves us in spite of and is that consent source of strength when we are feeling weak!!

    Carsedra of:

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  6. Tanya I will pray for your strength mama! Keep pushing… We all go thru good and bad times.. Keep your head up baby girl!!!! You are inspiring to so many people… You always say that you went thru a point in your life where you may not have been the "perfect person" but none of us are perfect… And god allowed you to grow into the women you are today.. what would life be without trials and growth?!

    God is using you in so many ways!

    P.S Love that vest

  7. Asking God to keep u in those moments of doubt and weakness. God is blessing you to be a blessing, your KARMA is already covered because HE knows/forgives and his GRACE is sufficient.

    As always the FASHION IS ON POINT!!

  8. i love your outfit from head to toe! especially the vest and boots. you look great!

    i can relate to your post; a lot of ppl depend on me as well. sometimes we need to just pray for the right words to say and for continued strength. don't forget to take time for yourself too. sometimes we get so caught up in helping others, we neglect the most impt person…ourselves. praying for you and keep on doing what you're doing 🙂 you're such a lovely and inspiring person.

    ~nic

  9. Nobody is perfect we all make mistakes, do not regret them but understand that these mistakes give you character and create the person that you are. I do believe in Karma, but I do not believe that every mistake we make is a "punishable offense" Most people never regret the things that they did do, but they do regret all the things they did not do. Keep pushing, stay strong, and be proud of the beautiful person you have become 🙂

  10. I know it is hard to wear so many hats and you do it so well. Even in this post you are encouraging us who see you do it so well – that everyone has their days but the key is to never quit!

    My lesson for this week is learning to be patient with myself also. Because I am usually the "fixer" I tend to always think I might be getting payback for something I might have done wrong – but the Lord is showing me it is not usually so. It's more that we want to be the best we can be and want to take responsibility. Sometimes it's simply break time we need with Him and deep down we know it too.

    Praying that your strength will be renewed!

    p.s- that outfit is cute! (got me missing my fall days from the Northeast)

  11. You are absolutely gorgeous!

    I know exactly what you mean, as I strive to also be that cloud of positivity for those around me… ironically, my blog is really were I vent. It's so much easier to let things out to people I don't see in person.

  12. Hey Tanya! Although you look amazing as usual (this is one of my fav looks on you 🙂 I can tell that your heart has been heavy recently. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Simple but true…this too shall pass.

    XO
    Ticia

  13. it's like you were cut from the same cloth as me (except you're the better side)!! i am also the one person everyone depends on in the family, just me (in a VERY large family) and not just emotionally. i can't thank you enough for putting forth the energy to post despite not having the energy to do so. i think you already know, your posts are sunshine for all those that visit.

    i have a lot of praying to do and i'll make sure to include you, Tanya, when touched by Him.

    xoxo

  14. Keep on praying and leaning on him, He will continue to strengthen you. Believes me He never gives us more than we can handle. He will never leave you or forsake you.

    You look beautiful as always.

  15. Those boots are giving me everything honey! I find myself going for the suede wedge boot alot this season. I already have two pair *drops head in shame* I love the overall look!
    BTW think i'm going to give your deep condish a try,i just blew my hair straight and now i want blow it out more often this product may just be what i need 🙂

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  16. *hug*
    I know how it is to feel disconnected from God and not hear from him because everything in life has drowned out His still, quiet voice. I struggle with that too, and also with finding my direction because I always let everybody else take priority first. Lately it seems like I'm never going to accomplish my own personal goals because my husband's career is flourishing and very busy so I'm left to take care of the house and kids. I don't want to complain either, and I'm very thankful but I feel like I'm never going to do what I want to do, and there's always something that comes up, preventing me from taking those steps. I just don't know what God has in store for me and I'm afraid it might not be the things that I want. I'll say a prayer for you girlie.

  17. I like your outfit, nice and it looks really comfy, I have a faux fur vest similar from yours but it's a pepe jean's, it's the perfect vest for fall. I like your message too, God first.

  18. I'm trying to get back to having a communication with God. I sorta let it go by the wayside these past few weeks. Hopefully, this time around, it'll be much stronger and more consistent.

    Regarding your outfit, love it. I'm a fan of denim on denim when done right. Your fur vest is nice! I'm still looking for one.

  19. Tanya you just continue to be the positive force that you are and don't let anything break or bring you down. Whatever doesn't kill you makes ya stronger hun and from what I gather you are a strong being. Sure you've been busy and haven't been able to speak with God but believe me you, he knows and he got ya covered;) Now on to this outfit I'm lovin' the fur and chambray together….nice! I just ordered my conditioner…I'm stoked! My hair gets sooo dry in the winter so this is right on time.
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  20. Everything about this blog was right on time for me. I, too, am trying to reconnect with God. I really need to work on building a stronger relationship with HIm. Don't carry more than you can bear, you can't put that kind of pressure on yourself. Showing your vulnerability can also be a way to show your strength. I am inspired just by you admitting your faults and your flaws. 🙂

    As for the fashion, another winner. Everything about this blog was on time for me- the spiritual message as well as an idea of how to rock my fur vest that I have worn once but put back in my closet because I didn't feel "inspired." Lots of love!

  21. Gosh i love this vest, you could rock a trash bag and look fierce! I really want to try a furry vest but i'm such a plump girl and i think i will look like a bear :-/

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