Shop Here: Top Old (Alternative Here) | Bobbi Rocco Shorts | Heels | Bag | Chanel Shades.I want to talk to you about following your own bliss. Sometimes we lose sight of this because the weight of life or maybe not taking the time to slow down. In the past eight months my life has been slowly changing for the better. Bad days defiantly come to all of us and it’s mostly bad because of the stories we make up in our head.  Sometimes it’s because I’m too hard on myself or always trying to please others before I please myself. Whatever the case was I didn’t start discovering anything until I started writing in a journal. I’ve been journaling consistently and it wasn’t until I started doing so was when I figured out what the real problem was. The problem was me. The problem was that I didn’t follow my gut about a lot of things. I knew that a (styling) job wasn’t right for me but took it anyway being greedy, I hired some people who gave me a horrible vibe and things turned out bad, I let people take me out of character instead of taking time to sit quite, pray and then respond to their foolishness. I sat quite because it was more comfortable, I didn’t make more videos and stopped writing as much because I was worried about what others would think. Something as simple as writing everyday has helped me discover all of this, or maybe I knew it all along but just couldn’t face it until I saw it written down on that piece of paper. It was a reality check.

After I accepted the problems in my life were all created by me, it kinda made me sad. I beat myself up about it for a while, was down  and felt like I was in a rut. I didn’t put my all into anything and gave the bare minimal. See when we don’t sit and spend time with ourselves we lose sight of who we are which in turn holds us back from being our best self. I can honestly say that I haven’t been my best self.  I finally faced it and knew something was wrong was when everyone left the house I would eat, sleep, work and just be functioning like a robot. That’s no way to live. It gets you by but you aren’t living a fulfilled life when things get like this. I began to pray almost every hour. I kept saying my mantra’s and that’s when I started writing. This has changed my life. I’m not going to say I don’t have bad days still, but writing allows me to get to the root of my problem, learn to accept and face them  confidently with no outside opinions.  I began to have faith knowing I’m exactly where I’m suppose to be at this very moment, even if it’s not so good.

Writing in my journal  has given me the strength to change the things in my life that aren’t fulfilling to ME and my well being.  If I’m not happy I now have the courage to stick up for myself and put myself first. I am important. I will still be kind and do nice things, but it’s ok to take care of you and to just say no especially if it will protect your brain space. I will not compromise my happiness, my space, my time or faith for anyone. No more.

Sorry for rambling. Hope this helped someone. xoxo I wore this outfit (here) when I was in Paris last year t this exact time of year (here). Love this look.